You may find that life is a stroll through the park. I don’t. To me, it is pain mixed with laughter. It is pain mixed with joy. The struggle through sanctification seems so burdensome at times. At other times, it is so refreshing. Through the hard times, like recently with school, I often wonder why God doesn’t just change me. I have learned from others and through the Bible that God is incredible! His power is beyond life itself. He formed the vast galaxies in a spoken word. The interaction of atoms were spun into existence with the motion of His hand.  To this day, life thrives in the heavens, below the seas, and on earth just as it has from the beginning while they all depend on the strength of God. Yet with one breath it could all change at the will of God. “Why does God not just change me already?” I often say this to myself.

It finally hit me today. The problem is not with God. The problem is with me. I have to understand the goal of God and the material that He is working with – clay. I am but dust, yet He is forming me into the shape of His perfect, holy Son. The weakness is in me – not in Him. I am His weakness. He chose me and is perfecting me. The clay is weak and the goal is precise. “Why doesn’t He change me already?” It is because He is good and does not wish for robots to give Him praise. It is because I am so messed up that to change me that drastically would be to destroy me. It is so that I can taste His goodness and faithfulness. He is winning me with His love. I am now glad to be called His weakness. I am glad that He is delicate with each precise movement and etching that He makes in my feeble life. I look forward to the time that I can worship Him wholly and purely. That will be a great day indeed! For now, I will rejoice in my weaknesses and praise Him for what is has done and is doing.

I leave you with one of my favorite passages in all the Bible.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
– 2 Cor 12:9-10

What misconceptions have you had that drew you closer to Him when you finally understood them correctly?

– Josh

Hey guys -

Life has been crazy lately. I guess it gets like this around this time of the semester. I have two 10 page papers due this week. In a couple weeks, I have major project due. That is going to be from 15 – 20 pages. Needless to say I am going to be busy.

Several topics have been swimming around in my head lately though. Here are some of the topics. Maybe you can help me choose which one to write on first.

- Church: The Showcase for Elite
- Denominations: Human Branding of Christ’s Body
- Silence: The “Loving” Kiss of the Enemy
- Life Without Facebook

Well, I had a few more, but they slipped my mind at the moment. Off to do some more research for my psychology paper on addiction.

Drop in a line to let me know that you are there too. haha

BTW: Who is the one from NY that frequents my page?

Pray for me,
Josh